This week, I made a bucket list of 50 things I want to do before I die. It was quite revealing. I learned a lot about myself. I realized that the thing I have always wanted to do in my life is to make people happy through music. For many years now I have had in the back of my mind to write a musical history of the United states and to write a Christmas program with songs and spoken words. Then I want to direct the programs or perform in it. I want to teach the history of music in the U.S. I also want to help others find the music inside of them and let their light, their unique voice, shine.
In order to make this dream come alive, I will need to be immersed in music daily and let my creative juices flow. I can only do this if I work in a music related industry. So, I have looked for music schools in the area and I am getting ready to apply to teach at one of them. However, I am afraid because I am the only person in the family bringing in sufficient income to meet our basic needs. If I quit my present full time job, I will probably only work part time for less money per hour.
I guess this is where the principle of risk comes in. If I follow my heart, it may be a risk. However, if I take that risk, like Steven Hitz discusses in his book, I will be taking the first step toward fulfilling my unique mission on earth. I am scared. Perhaps the Lord is waiting for me to take that leap of faith. Maybe if I do, my spouse will finally get his dream job as well, and we will be on our way to financial independence and living a joyful life.
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